Why I'm being hesitant to BLOG...

1.) The whole world knows all my shit. But now I live with a bunch of people who I don't know (and don't trust, and who probably won't like me,) and I don't know if i want them reading my shit. So hopefully by the end of the semester, I won't care and I'll be friends with them, but it's not really lookin too good. I MISS MY GATOS FROM LAST YEAR. uuuuuughhhhh seriously I HATE IT.
2.) my camera's flash broke so all my pictures are sucking
3.) I know juicy personal life gossip would be interesting, but uhh I'm trying to stay away from that cause a.) it's not that juicy at all b.) parties involved would be pissed c.) I'm not trying to get kicked out of my room at the ~casa bolivar~ (cause of my 2 children) and because of my ~~substance abuse problems~~

okay fine. it's not juicy, but it IS interesting.
you know, the way I deal with problems (or choose not to,) the way other people deal with our problems (or choose not to,) the way something can come out of nowhere and just FUCK SHIT UP!!!

I don't want people to judge me, I don't want people to get pissed at me for things that I think/"feel" and I don't want people who barely know me to read this shit and think I'm fucking crazy!
and for all these reasons stated, I haven't really been publicizing.

ON THAT NOTE, FUCK IT! PRIVACY IS SOOOO ANTIQUATED!!! SO HERE GOES!!!!!...

A CERTAIN GATO MADE FUN OF ME FOR HOOKIN UP WITH SOME DUDE A WHILE AGO which is BULLSHIT cause said CERTAIN GATO HAS A REP FOR DOIN THE SAAAAME SHIT!!
then after that bullshit, I went to the FRESH MEAT PARTY which was fab as usual, and ran into a certain NEGRO who tends to shake shit up whenever I see him by you know, making me feel extremely horrible and shit. Then GATO was dicky all next day even tho he knew I ran into said NEGRO and needed ~~comfort~~
WOW I SOUND SO **LATINA** RIGHT NOW I THINK I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF.
so THEEEEEEEEEEEN said gato went to dinner with a gata who's "just an amiga,"(it almost seemed like he wanted to spite me, even though I know that's not true. maybe. right? yeah. he's not a dick like that) but still he should call me after am I right? To be like, dinner with said gata is over, no I am not doing her up the butt, yes I'll make it up to you by hanging out with you tomorrow and being your slave. RIGHT? is that too much to ask??? ANYWAYS
I proceeded to just get high ( YES, GET HIGH, JUDGE ME ) and eat some Christians, and Tegan was like "has he called you? has he called you?" and i'm like uhhh no... should i be pissed?
Anyways, bottom line is, whatever. now I just don't fucking care. and he's making me dinner, and i'm just a fat whore, and food is the way to my heart, so I'm like, whatever. whatever whatever whatever whatever I don't fucking care about anything.

I'm gonna go SHOWER, ORDER MY BOOKS, PLAY WITH MY CHILDREN, GO TO WORK, then go eat some fucking food. and all is back to normal. easy peasy.

I'm sure no one has gotten this far, and if you have, enjoy these pictures of OLYMPICS PARTY.

I look like I have a PEEN! AND ITS BIGGER THAN MIGUEL'S!!

more peen

HO-LYMPIANS

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~gatas~~~~~~~~~~~~~

BORING SHIT YOU DONT WANNA READ ABOUT

So last night after shark week and lots of lolz my parents and their friends, i hung out with nicole and gabby and we talked all about BOYS. for like 2 hours. you know i can barely handle girl talk, so i had to hit the bottle. it gets me to open up, you know? just kidding. i was so happy drunk off shark week, i could have sat around and had girl talk for hours.
but anyways, gabby told me about how her 41 year old boss wants to hit it, and i gave her solid advice. it went something like this...
" well gabby, you're leaving in two weeks. so either you don't hit it, and you leave. or you hit it... and you leave. ya kno? "
JUST KIDDING THAT'S GROSS WHAT KIND OF A PATHETIC ADULT MALE WOULD WANT TO HIT IT WITH SOMEONE HALF HIS AGE? oh wait... the answer to that is ANYBODY.
but quite honestly, that's really sad and pathetic. although i know i will be 41 and hitting on my young employees, it's just sleezy in this case. it will NOT be sleazy when i'm 41 in a leopard print dress, 5 inch lucite heels, and red lipstick. (GATA)
okay, but really. i gave her my REAL ADVICE later on which was... every dude wants to hit it with someone half his age. do you really want to make his day like that? and he WILL open his big, fat, geriatric mouth to other employees, and then you'll just look like a ho. so the answer is no, no, no. on all counts. see... i'm being reasonable. FOR ONCE. I'M THE ONE giving the GOOD advice TO GABBY. JESUS, DID HELL FREEZE OVER?

so then we went on to talk about other things, like sharing google calendars (or NOT) with Gatos, like fighting over characters in video games and what colors they are, or whether or not a cappella can be "good music" or not... and how these were all stupid arguments to have with a gato, yet we do anyways.

all this GATO talk got a GATA thinking about "relationships" and shit. people make a big deal out of all this crap, but i was watching LA INK the other night, and one of the hoez was talking about this too, and she decided that everything is "just a decision."

For example, gabby, should you hit it? yes or no. it's just a decision. ME? do i want to share a google calendar with someone? umm yes or no. it's just a decision. jacy, should you get married? (ew) yes or no. it's just a decision that two people make and it has nothing to do with like or love or anything like that. it's like "okay, it's time" or "okay it's just courtesy at this point." or "sure, i might as well." you know? like ..."should i take it up the butt? well we've been going out a while now. it's just courtesy." HAHAH just kidding. i like to throw the butt secks in whenever i can to spice things up.

but anyways, i'm girl talked out.

this morning i woke up and went to a BOLIVIAN festival with jose coronado. yes i still talk to his bolivian ass, and he's fuckin' COOL, ALRIGHT? i went to see tinkus and caporales dancers which for some reason excite me way too much and make me cry sometimes... but anyways. he's some pics of a really cute little kid who turned out to be my high school friend lisa's little bro. ENJOY!

my future mini-gato. so cute! this type of dance is called tikus (i think) and it's REALLY COOL. i might do it next summer... yes lol all you want.

jose's sexy pose. lolz.

that's all for now GATOS. i'm gonna go meet up with some peepz and you know, do cool college kid stuff...